Time will not stop for us

hellloooo

2008-06-13T15:29:00.000-07:00

hi everyone.. it 630am and i'm still not slping... lol just finish training... well, todae run was very disappointing to me... I did a grave mistake not for the first time but a second one.. i forgot to exit cool.. till now i doing this kind of mistake wat am i doing.. i shldn't be doing this type of mistake at this point of time.. this year perhap is there is no five players.. u are comfirm of ur place in the compeition and despite upteem time reminder from the trainer(who left with YB now) and those judges who gave up their youthful slp to help us.. We shld be doing n working harder pushinng ourself to our max.. but we failed n failed n failed.. WHAT IS THISSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! RINA CHIA JIA YING wat r u doingggggg..... no one will help u no one will pity u if we don't get champion.. haiz haiz haiz... The face of our trainer was sooooo black till i dunno how to describe... i know we fail him i have no comment... i kept in slience during the debrief seldom said a words cause i'm scared.. i'm scared of the compeition i'm scared of everything now.. i didn't tot i will be in this position... i'm lost.. feel like crying but it just not right.. few days ago, i actully cried while i'm talking with ppl... nv did i expect i will... this few days alot of thing happened i don't know i shld be happy or not.. Cause i wish it to happen but i have to make a decision between two things... i don't wat shld i choose... if only god or someone tell me wat to do i will be grateful to that person...

i had made my choice and now i will not regret cause i feel it is happier for u and me... i don't wan to waste anymore of our time.. i'm sorry tat i choose this way but i think it will be the best for both of us... good luck for u in the future...:) u can find another better one.. i;m just not the one for u...

NCC TEAM ALL THE BEST CAUSE WE ARE CHAMPIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BE TOGETHER N WE WILL FIGHT ALL THE WAY!!!!

hey guy i'm back to life again...

2008-05-18T06:06:00.000-07:00

lol... sorry for not blogging for such a long period of time... when as time passby i feeling sick n tired of being there.. well i couldn't say that i don't like tat place anymore but i just feeling tired... again, this year i joined in NCC(national champs challenge) together with last year teammate;leo and yu xiang and this year we introduce in a new player sherry.. actually we have one more player but she choose to give up half way thru training.. Cause perhap she couldn't take the stress and the pressure tat were around team all the time thru training.. last year, i was too relax and i dun care watever my trainer say.. in the end, i'm the one who lost out.. so this year learnt to be smarter alittle bit just a bit... well this year trainer remain the same sherard and victor.. so this year alot of things happened to our team.. no matter wat things are happening to the store it is indirectly linked to us and because of tat we are like a paranoid to 'some'. Starting and toward the end of the period of training i wanna thank the trainer and some managers(berlin,karen,royce)for spending the time on us regardless of when.. todae, was our evaluation day. We have all the big shot coming down to judge us... we had to reach at 6.30 to do set up.. evreything was smooth until the playoff.. i drawn as 1st cook i dunno whether to be happy or wat cause i know how my cook fare during training.. i was telling myself u cna't let them down again... i didn't get a chance to play last year so this year we manage to form a team similar to last year one.. thanks to leo n yx for playing again one more time... when the whisper goes, we started everything was good... but as expected we all die in cashier.. after the play all of us was in daze cause both pair didn't to manage to parrot finish.. we were disappointed so do our trainer.. the result we all hope for was not meant to be.. we listen to our error and learn from those 'old birds'. the disappointment still embark in our heart till this very second.. we can't blame who cause we have ourself to blame for that.. Tension in this team nv ease.. the closer the date get i feel the pressure around us.. GUYS(sherry, leo, yu xiang) we can do it we believe in ourself and show to other tat our training n effort of the trainer did not go to waste.. we will prove to other and cancel out other comments... forget the result we get in the evaluation cause the result on the day itself is the prove of wat we have achieve.. This journey gonna be a tough on but if we stand together we will fight n win as one.. Once again i wanna thank leo sherry yx sherard victor and others for their efforts put in this training... WE're not going to let you guys down....!!!! if this is going to be the last chance we run together we will make it a memorable one n engrave in the mind of us.. LET DO IT AS WAT MAN UTD DID IN THE CHAMPION LEG DUN GIVE UP CAUSE U NV KNOW WAT WILL HAPPEN IN THE LAST GRASP OF VICTORY!!!!

finally bother to update

2008-01-08T09:52:00.000-08:00

It's been a long time since i lasted blogged... well, my o lvl are over.. now working back in the same old place again.. wat to say lehz... sometime i still thinking am i stupid or wat staying at that place.. now adays we have no say in new staff or junior staff they have so called backing in them.. last few week i meet my frenz for dinner they ask me am i mad staying at ther which they can onli pay u like lesser by two or three times other can.. argh i dunno wat to reply.. wanna increase pay like make submit one proposal like tat... talk until i'm so tired tat i just let my pay be there... sometime i really agree wat kiat say work so hard but in the end of the day u r not the one who take the credit... ppl will onli recongise u for ur bad and not good...let everythign take its natural course wat is ur is ur wat is not ur mean it is not meant to be urs

15 oct 07

2007-10-15T15:18:00.000-07:00

haha... grad from amkss 4days ago.. haha still thinking of the day we walk thur the red carpet and cry on each other shoulder.. haha.. wah for the past 2 days kenglee come to my hse there de mac and study.. along with waimun.. while walking to waimun hse kenglee keep saying about my bag.. ARGHH!!! wat's wrong with my bag... during the first night, mac were packed with students so we went to my hse study.. haha whose know at my hse we study for abt 2hr then everyone start to lose concentration and waimun go play my com as for kenglee she go watch CARTOON network LOL... Slept at 7am that day woke up at 3pm.. ytd, cecilia join us for our study... We waited for the waimun 2 1/2hr for her to finish her tuitions wah all of us wait till wanna slp lo... just when cecilia wanna fall asleep on the floor in waimun living room... they finished tuition.. haha we all were going to dash in waimun room but she locked her room... haha when we went in me and cec slept on her bed while she and kl go see the slide thing... haha went to mac after tat makan then study haha...when it's abt 3.30am all start to feel sleepy liao all yawning haha... kenglee was the most concentrate person among us from the first hour haha... we play some games to keep our awake haha..at 5.45am all cannot tahan liao go home slp.. haha waimun and kl still say wanna go back to sch todae.. bet both of them didn't go to sch lo slp so 'early' haha can wake up mehz... hahah gonna end my post here got to rush to Jas hse for tuition haha... see ya guy.. miss u all

goodbye amkss...

2007-10-11T11:59:00.000-07:00

5years in amkss... haha.. time really flies.. hsppiness, sadness and all other kind of conflict and emotion i had in amkss.. it had just ended on 11/10/07.. i dunno how to describe the feeling tat i feeling now.. i'm just sad. todae the farewell assembly was a memorable one. i tot i could held back my tears. i tried to when the video of our class was shown on the screen. bao yin, elin,cass,shirlyn,jas,kenglee,jw and me was trying very hard to not to cry out. but when the whole thing ended. All the teachers were standing on each side of the red carpet. I can't help but cried when i hugg the first teacher ms yeo. my tears just flows down without knowing. all kind of emotion were flowing through me at that point of time. My mind was blank. when i came into the arms of mrs ang i just cried out in her arm. i know there are times tat i made those teachers irritated but at the end of the day the ones tat i missed the most are those nagging teachers. it had been a habit of them nagging at me. mrs yeo, mrs ang, mr siva, ms wong, mr guang, mr ong and all thank for all the things you all had done for our class. despite times and times we let u all down but u all still gives us the helping hand n guide us to our last lap. we are well known for the not so good things and giving all sort of troubles. we went out the hall and all of the girls started crying. A empty feeling start to arise from my bottom of my heart. a very lonely feeling. i nv though i will feel tat. we took photo after tat.. haha i cried on ms wong shoulder sudden. i just cna't help it. we took photo with quite a few teacher and lots of shot with our classmate. after tat we went for dinner haha guess wat it's mr ling treat again haha.. Cost him a bomb. well we enjoyed our dinner, sat with mrs ang. she keep giving me the overcooked meat and told me she dun wan to eat overcooked meat haha... after tat sat with those teacher talked abt the past and present of our class and us. haiz i really misses the times we spent together.. i have made a bunch of frenz tat i can rely on and cry on. now it is time to move on to a greater height and say good bye to Amkss. Bye Bye to amkss. thank u for being my part of life and thank for everything. Thank u teacher esp mr tong,ang,wong,guang,karim,anand,yeo and also mr ling for all the support and care they gave to us. Amkss will be sorely missed.
5A last lap le... let do it for the sake of ours and the teachers.. to repay wat we owe them.. we must make our teacher proud of us and not to let their effort to go to waste... 5A JIA YOU WE CAN DO IT...
5A frenz forever... and AMKSS bye...~

2007-07-09T05:39:00.001-07:00

wat a year for me

2007-06-04T09:47:00.001-07:00

alright things have not been going to the way i wanted it to be... few day ago just got a lecturing session by one of my frenz.. the worst thign is now then i know what is the feeling of sitting back relax and watch... i can tell u is super depressing.. i was given umpteen chances to do it but i failed to do so.. nvm in the end the one who lose out will be myself.. i was too over confident and i failed in the end... i know wat the out coming before it was announced i can feel it i know how i perform.. i tot i had given myself mentally prepared but still when the whole thing started i still feel dishearten.. i cannot blame anyone because i brought it myself.. if i were to have more initative i would be in that position that i am now... i kick myself to the walls for doing such a foolish act.. he was right i just couldn't bring myself to accept facts.. so am i going to fall down now.. definitely no.. i must pick up my step from wher i fall.. pull up my sock and work hard.. when there is no aim there is no motivation for u to go on.. i found one reason to make me go for it.. that is ur word spurs me on for a challenge.. i wun lose.. if i were to have a chance to speak to them i will say sorry i failed them..but i will work hard to make them recongise me once again... if there is ppl who did it so cna me. if there is a will them a way.. nothing is impossible.. this is the worst moment in my life... but it is because of this from now on i will work even harder to prove myself.. thank for those guys who is encouraging me and supporting me till the last min.. but something cannot be change that the fact..

Sorry i disappoint u guys... i'm sorry...

who the hell will understand me

2007-04-10T09:28:00.000-07:00

i don't know who i am now what i am and what's the thing i going thur now... I had no regret in joining this year ncc but all thing are driving me insane. all the presure put on me and my team... NO body had faith in us neither do confident i just can't understand y... one and a half month more to ncc.. we are still starting on base onli what the hell.. i just feel like i wanna be alone i wanna have peace in my mind...i wanna achieve a name in tp i don't wan any more critism in our team.. our sweat and the time we put in are not for show but to prove to them wat we can... everyday train the feedback are the same i sick and tired of it... Who can i confide to no one who can i talk to no one i must well drown myself and forget everything... i wanna be nobody no sense of belong at least being that make my life easiler than facing the music which is making me cried... i hav to just go on n be a nobody.. who may led a carefree life... God if u r kind enough please bless me i can no longer take it anymore...

haha Happy Valentine's Day

2007-02-14T08:45:00.000-08:00

haha i really enjoy todae.. i really love my class 5A... i thank u all for giving me such a great day even tot todae my mood suck like hell... thank for all the present from u guy... weesan kit shirlyn jas jiawen and also jia hao haha... my class did a exchange gift session with my classmates... wah tat was really enjoying and elin prank the person who recieve her present by putting in a apple... whole class burst into laughter.. haha... well after tat me qi sheng waimun kuan wee arvain shafiq kenglee went to help ms wong for the CNY deco things.. wah for the second continuous day i stay back till 7.. todae paste the hong bao until we can go siao...the idiot gold teacher sit also dunno how to sit omg i was having my lunch then... nvm dun rank up that disgusting matter...then end of pasting it she just dump everything to us expect us to pack lo...wtf this type of teacher.. can must well dun do anything we put in our hardwork n she get the credits... look out for the background in the hall during CNY IT DONE BY OUR CLASS 5A... went back at 7+ slack at home do some homework and then now here i am blogging.. well thank u u guys for giving me such a great valentine's day... thank u...

Hey i really apprecite it even tot u r not here by my side at this very day... well come back soon and looking forward to the day u come back...thank u for the email..takecare urself over there... misses u and **** *...

Hey Hey

2006-07-27T04:26:00.001-07:00

Hey dun say me dun update hor i no time to update ma... so busy and tired... TIME IS RUNNING OUT MY N LVL is coming...Wat the... 68days left before doomday.. time past quickly

Raindrop

2006-07-27T04:26:00.000-07:00

i stand in the
open space
raindrop falling down from sky
every drop make me feel
all the pain i had been going through

i knee down
on the ground
looking high up to the sky
it show the remoseful
desicion i had made in my life

i lying down
on the ground
raindrop falling on to me
i raise my hand
feel the rain
clutch them tightly on my hand

Close my eyes
feel the rain
i was dreaming u and me
the memory u gave me
keep flashing
in my head
my mind twirling in a mess
wondering when u'll be back..

another one

2006-04-24T06:29:00.000-07:00

just i tot everything was fine
i start to dream of ours future
i tot i change u along
i tot tat i will be with u eternity
just as my dream start to dream
that was when my nightmare begin

just as i tot everythign had change
from bad to good
i tot u change because of me
but i was wrong
u change for the sake of ppl
but y i'm not the one
who u willing to change

My dream are now shattered
can't my little dream be fufil
u left me with a shattered heart
a shattered smile
a shattered my empty body
who can find my soul back now

just as i tot everythign had change
from bad to good
i tot u change because of me
but i was wrong
u change for the sake of ppl
but y i'm not the one
who u willing to change

wallking down the empty street
a empty soul of me
with no feeling attacted
i left with no heartbeat
i can't rmb how heart HURT NOW!!

just as i tot everythign had change
from bad to good
i tot u change because of me
but i was wrong
now i found the truth
how i hope i can reverse the time with u

Comment please

2006-04-18T07:51:00.000-07:00

this is just a simple song that i composed... any comment pls feel free to say.. thank u

heart breaking into pieces....mmmm

tat was when i first feel tat...
my heart is breaking....tearing
wat did u do to make me like u
dun u realise tat was a mistake
i took u for granted...

u make a changes in my life
from the day u left till now
u make me drowned into this deep
u make me fall in love with u tt deep
u make me the most happiest person ever
in the tat relationship...mmmmm

was it a crush
was it a sin
was it a mistake for me to like u
have i make a wrong choice for this
u make me...hurt deeply...
AND...

U make a changes in my life
from the day u left till now
u make me drowned into this deep
u make me fall in love with u tat deep
u make me the most happiest person ever
in tat relationship...Hooooo.hooooo.hoooo

was it a crush...hooo
was it a sin...mmmm
was it a mistake for me to like u(hooooooooooo)
have i make a wrong choice for this
PLs sumone tell me
guild me along
dun leave me behind...

Haha

2006-04-14T10:03:00.000-07:00

oh first of all sorry i had no time to update my blog.. and today i updating haha wan buy 4d or toto haha... ok this post is specially blog for eleanor.. this person keep asking me to update say my blog rot liao haha... ok first of all wat i gt to say is this few months alot of things happen liao... so is not a really good months.. people from quiet person become back stabber.. my class well known for notorious and ppl start to talk bloody crap and some WORST ACt fragile.. WAH better dun say liao i'm raging now.. haha... ok happy thing is finally i start to turn on my study mood liao n my class is now united.. haha... work... still alright la but after some gt promoted they r bloody hell proud.. wat i got to say is onli the more power u gt the more fuck off u ar..ok write till here liao.. go watch naruto liao haha... ok ONE last thing ELEANOR U LOVE FROG haha...

It been a long time

2005-09-20T21:17:00.000-07:00

first of all hi everyone... sorry i was just too busy to update it... it had been abt 6mth i didn't update le sorry... this is not a very good year for me n ferrari.. they lost not even a win n kimi is catching up fast with MaClaren pace was just too quick for other car to catch same as wat ferrari are last year..thing happen to me.. i miss him alot but... haiz.. ok stop tat crap... well i'm not doing very well in my sch.. result had not gone up since the 1st term... teacher crap while i sleeping haha... NO RESPECT RIGHT haha tat me.... but i still respect 3 teacher... n also todae i like to wish CASSANDRA HAPPY BIRTHDAY A GOOD ENDING FOR U... I WISH U HAD A WONDERFUL DAY WITH .... ok i will stop here go play maple liao bye... oh also i wish tat lvl80 person happy birthday haha....

Sorry GuYs

2005-05-26T17:21:00.000-07:00

hey sorry i didn't have the time to update my blog so sorry... but can assume that i'm lazy to update... happened alot of thing this few month going to palau ubin this coming monday haizz... todae is my sch PTC day.. haiz don't know wat will she say haha... exam over but still got end of year haiz haha... so sorry but anyway gtg bye... takecare my frenz... n remember MiChAeL ScHuMaChEr RoX!! haha

YESH!!!

2005-02-25T23:12:00.000-08:00

hello everybody i juz come back from camp.... 3day 2night sia... at last i tot i will be there complain n slacking.. but i enjoy it sia... rock climbing,abseiling,nature walk... song sia i really enjoy.. ad our grp trainer...siao one sia... she veri funny n siao... sponge box square pant haha... i really enjoy the time with ad n out grp... GROUP 12 roX!!!haha really miss the time with then... sobsob got to leave the camp...

hELlo

2005-02-08T20:52:00.000-08:00

helllo finally have the time to update liao...well a good start of a year n frankly speaking stil average... so anything juz msg me la cuz i lazy liao

2004-10-19T18:12:00.000-07:00

hello... today quite sianz... go to sch dunno wat to do.. went to computer lab 2 times... rain veri heavy think like falling asleep... erm.. nth more to write cuz veri tired i go sleep lehz.. takecare my frenz...bye...

mich@el schumacher celebrating his win at Suzuka where the track was cancel at sat cuz of tyhoon

michael schumacher my idol

HaHa!! finally..

2004-10-15T21:09:00.000-07:00

Finally got time to care my blog le haha.... for those few thing key in pass few weeks were make or update by my godsis... she ar call her to marry tell me 8-10 more year i think i die le la by tat time.... got back result but not veri gd... hope vanish in a days.. haiz... at home rotting like mad liao la.... then horz todae mi keng lee cecilia went to eat tom yam haha... the auntie siao one so spicy even soft drink cannot stop the taste in my mouth siao sia.... haha want to see movie but rite insuffient cash so dun hav... then jaron chan is sooooooooooooo fan ren keep asking wan to go n see the band performance anot at victoral concert hall haha....sianz sia... Best frenz 4ever...

updaTE

2004-10-14T06:03:00.000-07:00

helLo just edit my BLog ya... will update more soon...